Conversation as a gecko

This was a chance discussion. I grabbed the words because they seemed illustrative. If we identify as White, or are identified as White, or pass as White day to day, do we have a White culture?

We each have multiple overlapping shared cultures deriving from our family, history, geography, migrations, sexuality, friends, education, experiences, faith and active acquisition. However, if we are White, all of these are influenced, if not wholly owned, by a culture that we can call White.

The concept of White is only loosely linked to skin colour and has nothing to do with genetics: race is a wholly social fabrication. Rather, the essence of Whiteness is power sourced in violence. White culture is intrinsically bound up with the last five hundred years of European colonialism and expropriation, enslavement and genocide, and delusions of supremacy. Whiteness is tied to the chance development of capitalism in the coffee houses and markets of London and Amsterdam.

White culture is so pervasive that we can take it to be universal and normal across much of the world. Indeed it is intrinsic to the idea of White culture that it is normative and holds us all to arbitrary standards. As a White person it can be hard to see this, looking at our culture from within as it were, just as we cannot readily perceive the curvature of space-time though we and all things round us are affected by gravity. Moreover, our inability to see White culture is wilful: we corrupt our vision and obscure our history and thus reproduce our cultural memes.

Capitalism is a powerful cultural mechanism that alienates us from our heritages, commodifies our identities and stories, and sells these back to us as pared-down, corrupted, corporate-owned and controlled shared dreams.

What on earth …?

What am I trying to achieve?

This was a sketch made in gouache in the moment – in a 3 minute music track – then later repainted over 20 minutes. Somehow this has something of what I am trying to capture in the blockiness and opacity of the medium.

Here are other 3-5 minute painted sketches, mostly done standing over a horizontal surface, with fairly stiff paint and broad flat brush.

credit to https://drawingisfree.org/Monday-Live-Portrait-Sessions

April 3rd 2024

The Israeli military said the investigation found that the officers mishandled critical information and violated the army’s rules of engagement.
“The strike on the aid vehicles is a grave mistake stemming from a serious failure due to a mistaken identification, errors in decision-making, and an attack contrary to the standard operating procedures,” it said.
The army said it initially hit one car. As people scrambled away into a second car, it hit that vehicle as well. A third strike was launched as survivors scrambled into a third car.

Excerpts from The Guardian. 5th April 2024

Note that this targeted killing had the effect of turning back ships of much needed aid under conditions of purposeful and intended famine caused by Israel’s blockade of Gaza. Furthermore, nearly 200 humanitarian workers have been killed in Gaza since this catastrophic escalation in Israel’s occupation started in October.

Beware:
All too often, we say
What we hear others say.
We think
What we’re told that we think.
We see
What we’re permitted to see.
Worse! We see
What we’re told that we see.
Repetition and pride are the keys to this.
To hear and to see, even an obvious lie
Again and again and again
Maybe to say it, almost by reflex
Then to defend it, because we’ve said it
And at last to embrace it, because we’ve defended it
And because we cannot admit that we’ve embraced and defended an obvious lie.
Thus, without thought, without intent,
We make mere echoes of ourselves —
And we say
What we hear others say.

Octavia E. Butler, Parable of the Talents

More Drawing is Free

I am finding drawing faces at speed (3 to 5 minutes mostly) very challenging and frustrating. I do not want to be restricted to a simple outline but to give a sense of volume and life. I want to use paint rather than pencil, but truthfully my technical skills drawing with a brush and my control of the medium (fluidity of the paint, colour and tone selection) are letting me down. In particular, I struggle to render eyes in these fast sketches. Here are two hour’s worth of attempts.

2nd April 2024

On 14th March, the Secretary of State for Levelling Up, Housing and Communities (Michael Gove), laid before Parliament non statutory plans to identify individuals and groups as “extremist”, disengaging them from democratic involvement with central government.
He said:
“The proposed definition will hold that extremism is the promotion or advancement of an ideology based on violence, hatred or intolerance that aims to: negate or destroy the fundamental rights and freedoms of others; undermine, overturn or replace the UK’s system of liberal parliamentary democracy and democratic rights; or intentionally create a permissive environment for others to achieve those results. While the Government in no way intend to restrict freedom of expression, religion or belief, we cannot be in a position where, unwittingly or not, we sponsor, subsidise or support in any way organisations and individuals opposed to the freedoms that we hold dear.”


The press release attached to this measure offers as context “Since the 7 October Hamas terror attacks in Israel concerns have been raised about the wide-ranging risk of radicalisation.” In considering causes of polarisation of opinion, no mention is made of the actions of Israel that has killed more than 30000 Palestinians in 6 months and destroyed all infrastructure for survival and civic life in land it occupies, and that is now subject to two direct instructions from the international Court of Justice to stop genocidal actions and to ensure provision of humanitarian aid and food to the people. In Parliament, examples were given of organisations to be investigated as extremist that include those promoting democratic engagement by Muslim citizens.


In our society, it is mainstream and not at all extreme to give moral and material support to an allied nation that, systematically and at scale, murders civilians and creates severely injured and traumatized children without any surviving family. In the debate, as an example, holding aloft a model of a dead baby in protest against complicity in genocide was considered “extremist”.

March 2024

In which I explain the diary and point out that the title is ironic. My first page is a mix of barely-understood and half-remembered cosmology and existentialism.

Jacob Bronowski “The Ascent of Man” first aired on BBC one in 1973.

The destruction of Hamed town in Khan Younis left behind following the withdrawal of the occupation forces from the City. From Eye.On.Palestine

Elijah Baley and R. Daneel Olivaw reveal the fear at the heart of the White identity.